When my emotions try to take over my mind, and the tears threaten at every turn, or anger flares with the least of triggers, I know without a doubt, that my mind is telling me that I am emotionally exhausted! It is the time to rest, or very soon, I will break down. I have learned this lesson the hard way, too.
In every area of life, our busy minds are a larger part of the daily song and dance…
Over the past few years, I have had so many roles come and go that have thrown my life into fast forward and crazy interpretive dance! Becoming an empty-nester, becoming a grandparent, my husband’s loss of sight, the two year long (so far) building of our tiny home, the ups and downs of running our business, the added burden of two aged vehicles with engines breaking down, the somewhat instability of being on the road instead of having
a scheduled life, and the inconsistent fellowship with others because of this new lifestyle.
Just like a body that is weak opens itself to viruses and autoimmune diseases, a mind that is weak from exhaustion can leave itself open to attacks that are much more wily! (Wily, meaning: deceitfully gaining an advantage…how fitting!)
My mind has been telling me that I am a hypocrite, and pointing out that once again I have failed. I lost my temper with my husband. I didn’t give my worries to God, but kept them to myself and tried, unsuccessfully, to handle things on my own. I harboured bitterness and refused to forgive. I am a failure (aka loser) in this life. I am a fake. I don’t practice what I preach. There is no hope for me…things will not improve. I will not improve. I am not necessary here.
But NO! Get behind me, Satan! I know those are not words from God! And I know that it is the enemy, the deceiver, that waits until I am weakened, and gains a mental advantage while I am down! I have allowed myself to go beyond the time to rest…
BEFORE I allow myself to get to this point, I should be resting in the Lord regularly!
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